THE GREAT TRAVAIL

I sat with a friend at my table in Perth having coffee. I felt a pain in my right hand so intense I jumped then twenty minutes later the left hand was done, again at twenty minutes my left foot the same so I waited for the next twenty minutes to pass and nothing happened. I wondered why until I realized this is the foot that I had jumped from a tree in my youth onto a mail and it had pierced almost through one side to the other I still have this scar today.

I had divorced my husband and when we separated he had made a vow to take my children form me turn them against me and never have anything to do with me again if I took him to court over child maintenance. I did for he was an abuser a controller and this is why we parted ways. I knew his threat was real.

My daughter had returned from a trip to Australia to visit her father and brother. She returned to me a broken girl never to be the same again. What ever went on in Australia I do not know but I organized for her to see a Councillor. It was my birthday weekend which my mother always played up on. I had recently given birth to my youngest son only a few 6 months only six months old so when My mother invited my daughter to stay over night as her cousin would also be there I agreed. I never saw my daughter again alive.

We went to court and the judge said to my mother you have told so many lies, if I ever see you before the courts in regards to Debra you will be going straight to jail then turned to me and said as for you Debra you can never have anything to do with your mother ever again then ordered my daughter be returned to me. By this time my mother have defamed me from one end of the country top the other in what was an open and shut defamation case.

I waited for the date for this to happen in the mean while my daughters father flew over  from Australia went to a different court going against the existing court ruling (he has ever been a law unto himself literally), obligated to but never notified my barrister and presented to that court obsolete court papers committing vindictive perjury another jailable offense and unlawful kidnapping of Shannon.

Instead of being informed of a counselor date and my girl coming home to me safe where she would get the help she needed, I was informed that Shannon was in Australia and heard nothing until that terrible phone call 4 years later at 11pm telling me she was dead and unknown to me been living in Wellington with a 35 year old male. Do you know the worst part, I feared that this would be the outcome of her time amongst my mother and her father because I know how they operate.

And it began again

Shannon was kidnapped again having already been so twice. This time from the morgue by my mother and then again by her father when he arrived in New Zealand so all in all Shannon was kidnapped four times in total. Taken unlawfully through the breaking of the law.

I had to go to the high court so I could get to see my daughter one last timer. Traumatized again by my mother and her father and in shock and grief that my girl was dead, at their doing, yes, their doing it was on their watch as well. All I wanted was to see her one last time.

I didn’t care about anything else but seeing her, so I never ignited the arrest waiting for my daughters father from his vindictive perjury and kidnapping her back to Australia, but the court knew and now there is a long history of his law breaking in the courts here against me and what he did not realize was just how much he was monitored, not only by the courts but of course the situation was of high importance to the tribe thus Maoridom.

Tui Adams and Ennead Tata had worked with my barrister as Ennead had banned my mother from the tribe given she had said to Lynette Huia Paul she wanted nothing more to do with Maoridom ever again and her treatment of myself and children. Ennead had decided to state Jenny Sullivan was Te Paia but this is not the case, had never been so all the while I was with Ennead. When I asked why she said we do not want Lola to have the information and certainly it is different on the whakapapa papers Ennead had handed to me or the documents lola had shown directly to Kay Helson.

I could not even look at my daughters father he was such a disgrace I am so ashamed of him and my mother and embarrassed that they had been any part of my life. Like usual for them it was more important to hurt me than to grieve my daughters passing. That he also did not realize a VIP Māori kuia was with me that day and so witnessed firsthand the extent of the aggression towards me and the duplicity of both my mother and him it did a great deal to redeem me within Maoridom from her defamation of me once it was realized what I had endured from them both. So, while Alan was dismissive of and denigrated my position within Maoridom as mere fantasy and intended future role as Queen made up not only was he rude to me but to a high ranking Māori elder, and to Maoridom as a whole. He did not read the room well at all exposing himself fully as the abuser he is. The court already knew of my mothers part. Hence the very reason why she did not attend the high court yes, it was that jail cell threat that the court had made to her previously. We all knew, and we all watched as they played out their dastardly plan together, including the judge.

Sadly my children had been weaponized against me. I had not seen my eldest son and unbeknown to me he had reached with no direct involvement from me for I had had no power or input in his raising after seven when he had returned from a day out with his father demanding to live with him. He and I had parted on good terms. Somehow between then and this moment without any input from myself he had reached a state of fulfilling his fathers vow that had been made against me.

Both my mother and my children’s father had accomplished all this by giving me no right of reply, suppression, and control, that their narratives was driven with out hindrance of the truth.

I had always thought that my mothers behavior was due to how she had been treated by Maori I now understand that for some in Maoridom it is their format just as I understand the colonized victimization and the greater reason for dysfunction and their alignment to Islam and China.

My daughters tangi was held at Rereamanu Marae sent down unaccompanied they had removed her from her coffin and sent her in a cardboard one holding theirs in Auckland where I gave permission for her to be buried.

I had been walking the golden path when all this occurred and looked at them thinking what a family to have for such a thing but my path was mine to do and so I continued on it.

Not long after more maketu would be sent to me and while I sent it back your know return to sender wrong address in one instance I was so surprised at who was doing it and delayed this out of shock and in so doing took a great injury to my back outside Howick Matariki marae that to this day causes great pain a permanent reminder of the dark forces that Maori throw around in self will. I had not known the dark forces until I had returned to New Zealand to be with my people and to this day I am so disappointed in having found so much of it among the people that I still weep over it. So while I was contending with life, this and the spiritual walk while being a solo mother I had no true place of belonging at all. I could not relate to those around me for they had no hearts many of them just agendas, selfishness and a darkness that undermined any real exchanges. I was on my own and in this on the ledge alone but thankfully with God beside me with those messengers of God I was not lonely.

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